How can I be a mom and not be completely infatuated with my children? They are such beautiful squirts.

Motherhood has been a difficult thing of late... My self-pitying parties seem to be more frequent... I often lose sight of tremendous calling that motherhood is and yearn impact the world differently. I hadn't expected my life to be ALL motherhood... just thought kids would be a "neat" additive to what I had already going on. I miss relationships as they were without children sometimes. I miss being able to completely focus on a person and who they were without constantly sniffing for the poopy diaper that is sure to cause a red bum if not caught right away. Many of the moms that have surrounded my life now have encouraged and reminded me frequently of this beautiful calling in life, of which I am VERY grateful. I need to be reminded which hurts my heart to type - as I should know and love every moment of this. It will not last forever!

Life is good to us. How underserving we are such tremendous amounts of grace and mercy demonstrated to these sinfilled beings!